It was March of 2017 and I was down to my last penny. It took me 15 months to spend everything that I worked for over 7 years and I wasn’t even looking for a job. I was waiting for life show me the next step because I knew I didn’t want to go back to the 9 to 5.

Why did I spend all my savings?

After 7 years of hard work all across Europe, I saved up over 20.000 EUR while not being careful with my spendings. I had a retirement fund, 4 bank accounts in 4 different countries, investment plans and so on. I was preparing for a future that I might never even get to live. But this is what I was told to do, so I did. Work hard for my whole life so to hope that my savings will last long enough once I retire? I never really liked this concept, because it felt like I was not enjoying the moment.

I thought if I moved IMG_1275countries, life would be different, but I was still told when to arrive at work, how much I can make, when can I go on holiday…etc. I did not enjoy my life and I didn’t understand why I need to spend most of my life waiting to get old. So one day I packed my backpack and headed to Latin America, where it took me 15 months to spend nearly 20.000 EUR.

At first, I hated to see my hard earnt money leaving my accounts, but once I got over this initial shock I started to see what I was getting in return. Experiences, freedom, learning, passion, hobbies, friends, expanded horizons, spirituality, expanded network, new skills, language, food from all around…etc.

I had no problem spending 500 dollars in a day for 2 scuba diving certifications, no problem spending 220 dollars of a 5-day hiking trip in Peru, or 500 dollars on a last minute plane ticket anywhere…money went fast, so fast. But I loved it! I was free from everyone else’s expectations and from my own mental prison.

I bought life

That money I spent on traveling was the best investment of my life. I don’t need a big, expensive house, or a fancy car. I had everything before, I had the huge balcony overlooking the Mediterranean sea, I had the car, the fancy job, the pretty decorative pillows on the couch and I was miserable because I was doing something I didn’t enjoy to be able to afford all these.

I’m not saying this is the right path for everyone. I met so many who do love more stability, work, material possessions and so on. I know one day I will need them again to a certain extent, I feel as I’m getting older, I need more and more stability. But back in 2015, all I nScreen Shot 2017-07-09 at 13.51.39eeded was freedom and time to discover myself.

I bought my life. I bought my career, my home, my spirituality, and happiness. Through my travels, I met someone who gave me a job that I love and makes me good money and I can do it online. This allowed me to start my own business as a life coach. I finally feel home for the first time. I know what I’m good at, what my goals are, and the person I am. I faced criticism, social disapproval, I was wished horrible things, but guess what…I needed them to grow balls to pull my life off.

Money, money, money…

Once someone told me that I have to experience poverty before I can get rich. I have been thinking about this for months and I think I know what he meant. Because I was down to my last penny, I have been wearing the same clothes for over a year, I was dependent on other people’s help for accommodation, I experienced when nothing is possible anymore. I knew I couldn’t settle for anything less than what I dreamt about because then spending all my savings would have gone to waste. I knew I will not end up where I came from. In my own prison. So I kept my beliefs and I was not going to settle for a job I didn’t really want just because of money.

And when I had nothing, I felt richer than with 20.000 EUR in my pocket. I felt pure, back to zero, suddenly I had no pressure. When I was poor, I was the happiest. This was a lesson poverty through me. So I knew when I actually start making money, this lesson and feeling will follow me. Money won’t corrupt me again because I learned to be happy without it. I didn’t need external things to do that. I found it in me. I was rich. So rich!

Then my only pair of sandals broke and I wore them for another 6 weeks before I got the job and I could afford a new pair. They were the signs for me that it was time to get to work and when I needed money the most, but I wasn’t going to compromise my values and standards, that’s when I got the job as a video maker. I love my job in every way and it allowed me to start my business. But I had to stay strong and stick with my beliefs. The temptation of getting a job because I had to was extremely strong.

When I didn’t have society’s expectations on my mind, I was free to think for myself. „Now that I cleared my past and I’m starting from zero, what do I want?”

On the road, I learned life. When you don’t know what’s coming, you become very adaptable, strong and creative. The skills that traveling taught me will Screen Shot 2017-07-09 at 13.48.16benefit me for the rest of my life. So what about retirement? Yes, I did start saving a little again, but I stopped worrying about the uncertain future. I believe I equipped myself with the skills that I need to think on my feet, so I’m not worried about what will happen to me in 40 years. If I even get to 60 plus I will let you know my plan. All that matters at the moment is the moment. The older I get, the more I plan ahead, but I’m only old enough to see 2-3 months into the future and that’s fine.

It is fine.

It is nobody’s job to worry about my future, but mine.

 

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